Sunday, November 7, 2010

More Endorphins, Less Thesaurus

Normal people probably don’t get up in the morning wondering what they’ll finish or how far behind they’ll still be by day’s end.  Do they?
It’s NaNoWriMo season, when previously sane people across the globe decide it would be a great idea to crank out a 50,000 word novel  between bringing the kids back from trick-or-treating and decorating the house for Christmas.  Somebody (who?) also manages to cook a turkey during this time.  Don’t ask me how it all gets done.  I’m sure I don’t know. 
It’s in the spirit of this NaNoWriMoming (that’s what it’s called, right?) that, just two—or is it three?—weeks after creating this blogspot for myself and all my eminently share-worthy thoughts, I decided to jump right on in and blog something.  Blogablogablogabloga.  There you go, world.  You’re welcome.  Except I broke into a bit of a sweat when I sat down to do it, and I had to go and switch laundry loads and make a pot of chicken noodle soup from scratch while I recovered my nerve.
I’m a writer, but it’s not my habit to just sit down and write lots of words in a row.  It is my habit to write a sentence (or, you know, a clause), and then read it several times, visit to go over some synonym options, add a few more words, and then delete the whole thing and go pick up the kids from school.  So the decision to just go ahead and blog today, without a plan or even a topic, was truly counter to my M.O.
I quickly began to regret my blithe blog announcement on Facebook. 
But, quite frankly, I’ve had enough of perfectionism.  As much as I truly believe I’d turn into a drooling, obsessive and self-loathing lunatic within hours of signing on for NaNoWriMo, as crazy as those NaNoWriMomers strike me with their wacky hours and even wackier word counts, I realize they are on to something.  While they’re plugging away without a care for punctuation, word choice, or any sort of accuracy, they’re transcending their own doubt.  They touch the magic; they meet the muse.  It’s the New York City Marathon brand of writing, and I’m one of the sideliners along the marathon course, who maybe doesn’t have a side-sticker, but who also still isn’t completely sure of what she’s capable of, if she’d just let go.
So, as I said, enough of perfectionism, enough of fear.  It’s just a blog.  Sheesh.  Some people write them in ten minutes.  I’ll just do it, and then get back to my editing my manuscript (yes, I’ve written one, and, no, I don’t care to say how long it has taken me) to within an inch of its life.


  1. well, I'm standing here with a measly paper cup of water for you. You want it or not? I mean, you look all sweaty and exhausted.

    Ok, fine, here's an orange slice also.

    And a banner that says, Rah Rah!

    Glad you're in. It's, well, something. :)

  2. beautiful, awesome and honest. you're my writing hero.

  3. Well, if you're going to go to all this trouble to write a blog post, the least I can do is take the time to post a comment.

  4. Oh, and to actually say something on topic, too. Here goes: I don't do NaNoWriMo. Never have, doubt I ever will. It's not how I write. More power to whoever NaNo helps but I write in short bursts, then edit, revise, edit, revise, re-read, then get another short burst, rinse, repeat. But I'm thinking about starting a new group called NoMoWriMo.

  5. I've started a group called Bananfanowrimo. So far, lots of fun. There's only two of us and we barely follow our own rules. :D

  6. Welcome to the Blogosphere.

    Now I have to get back to NaNoWriMo, I'm about 10,000 words behind.

  7. You're too hard on yourself!! It was a great first blog!! You're an amazing writer, and being a perfectionist isn't that bad! I feel the same way about my photography with the marathon metaphor(good one, by the way!). Always watching people run by me, but never joining them. Love ya honey, and looking forward to read whatever else pops into your head!

  8. well, you did it! I think you'll find blogging to be a freeing experience. that is, after you are done posting. no promises for beforehand. always difficult to get going.
    now that we've established that, good job!!! loved it........(you would never know I'm a writer from this boring comment.

  9. Great start! You're funny and honest, Christine. That's the best combo.